Random rant

It's been pretty hard trying to find a decent guy. I wish I could find someone who just doesn't want me for my body and actually loves me for well, being me. It's been making me feel insecure about myself lately and I have been thinking about changing my look(surgically) simply because I don't think I am as beautiful as I could be. It sometimes gets to the point that I compare myself to other people and pick at everything I don't have when it is a totally bad habit and wrong. I just want to know if anyone has felt this way and what do to in order to recover from it. I have my good days and bad days. But today is definitely not a good day. I need to keep in mind that confidence is silent and insecurities are loud.