Conflicted

I know my husband and I want a baby and I’ve been off birth control since December. We plan to wait until we’ve been married a year to start trying. But with family members having babies and seeing more pregnancy announcements I’m getting antsy. But we also have debt to still pay off and I’d like to not work full time once we start having babies. I’m just not sure what to do and I feel like I change how I’m feeling all the time. Also some family members just recently had babies and I’d like the pregnancy to be special for my husband. He’s the only son and typically gets pushed aside.

Is this normal what I’m feeling? Some days I already want to be pregnant and then other I feel like we’ll never be ready or prepared because of the debt we’re trying to pay off.

Also I get jealous when people say they’re pregnant. Wishing it was me