Dry spell

I just need to rant because it’s been a year and a half since I’ve had sex and it really frustrating. I’ve thought about one night stands but they’re not for me, I need to have a connection with someone to do anything. Everyone around me is so okay with hooking up and I feel so hopeless, and sexually frustrated lol. Masturbating is cool and all but I wanna partner 😭 Every dude I encounter is trash all they wanna do is smoke and “chill” like damn. I just wanna find a half way romantic dude and get lucky🙄 somebody tell me I’m not alone!