So today me and my boyfriend decided to go on a break. It probably doesn’t seem like a big deal but right now it’s all very fresh and I’m feeling a little overwhelmed 🤕 so I thought I’d make this post because I love that <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> is a supportive community and I could probably use that right now!!

I know we’re making the right decision because it got to a point where I was unhappy and things just weren’t working. We’ve decided to see how things pan out and I guess if we decide we’re better apart then we’ll actually break up. He’s my first love and my first boyfriend, (we’re both 19) so I’ve never experienced anything like this before. we’ve decided not to tell our parents atm because they’re best friends and they would freak out, but ofc if we do end up breaking up we’ll tell them!!

I don’t really know how to feel atm, I feel a little scared and anxious because I feel out of my comfort zone, I’m also anxious about having to keep it from my family. I don’t really know how I’ll emotionally cope - Ik somehow who is either really emotional or really headstrong like for example I’m not good at dealing with grief whereas with other things I’ve been able to control my emotions a lot more. Ugh idk I’m feeling a whole lot of things right now, I feel slight sick wondering if this was the right thing to do. I know it is but I also feel like my anxiety (I’ve had 2 rounds of therapy for anxiety in the last 3 years) is probably making me think that this isn’t the right thing when in reality it probably is.

Has anyone else been on a break? Any comments or advice would really be much appreciated, I’ve only told by best friend so far so I’m feeling a little isolated with this ahahaha 😅