Finger tattoo

I'm 17 and I just got my boyfriend to tattoo an x on the side of my right middle finger and XIII on my left middle finger. It sounds very unsafe hate all you want but I love them, he did it with a prison stick and poke rig a sewing needle with the end poked into a pencil with thread wrapped around it, he sterilized everything and used clean India ink. My mum and dad still don't know and I'm scared to show them, my brother already has a bunch of tattoos and he's 18 he got his first at 14. I love getting little stick n poke tattoos just because of how personal they are I like to get different people in my life to tattoo me so I can always have something to remember them by. When I was 13 I was going through a rough time and I had already started harming myself, I have scars all over my left arm, so one day I just watched a few videos and did a little research and I tattooed a large-ish triangle on the I side of my arm over my scars and that was my first one. It looks horrible lol but idc after I did it I immediately wanted it fixed but now I just want to leave it the way it is, it means so much to me and I would hate to change it. Sorry for going on haha I'm bad with that if you made it through he entire post thank you for reading! (I'm not really sure what the point of this post was)