So my boyfriend of two years took this picture of me at a graduation party the other day.

He pulled out his phone and told me to look then he opened Snapchat so I thought he was gonna show me a text or story and he took a picture... I absolutely hate pictures. Haven’t taken a picture of myself since last’s year. I never go out places. I’ve dropped out of school from too much pressure. I have horrible social anxiety.

Sometimes I feel like I look ok in the mirror after putting in some makeup but then I pull out my camera and ruin my makeup by crying. I’ve always felt my stomach is too big and my legs are way too skinny. People used to call me anorexic in 7th grade and it’s still stuck in my head. My hair is too short and my undereyes are sooo dark. My nose is too long and my lips are thin. My eyes are tiny and downturned and my eyelashes are stubby and straight. My arms and legs are super long and skinny. I’m just so unproportional. I never ever take pictures especially in front of him. He’s constantly taking pictures of me and everytime I see them I feel horrible. That he looks at that all the time how does he not hate me so much by now. I’m horrible.

Also this is not for attention and definitely not fishing for compliments as they don’t mean much. People can say whatever I’d never know what they truly think. So please don’t come attack me for wanting attention. I literally dropped out of school to avoid attention so