It’s better NOT to have a birth plan.

I was debating on writing my birth story, but I would’ve wanted to read something like this before I gave birth.

My due date was May 5,2019, on May 3 at 12pm I felt like I was leaking when I woke up completely I saw that there was a puddle of water or what I thought could’ve been pee on my bed. I got scared but thought it couldn’t be my water since it didn’t gush out. But I called my dr and he told me to go in to get checked. Sure enough she checked me and said I was 2cm, 2days before that I was barely 1cm dilated. When she told me it wasn’t my water i got up and as soon as I got up I felt like I peed myself and I just felt like that was it , she checked me again and told me that was definitely my water. She ordered me to go into the hospital right away, I knew i was going to be in there for awhile though since I wasn’t that dilated that much so I went home showered got everything ready even went to eat lol. They admitted me around 8pm that night. They started me on pitosin, I told them I wanted to have a natural delivery but I wasn’t opposed to having an epidural if I truly needed it. They told me I had high blood pressure later around 1/2am May 4th. I went In knowing I wanted to be able to walk around so I literally CRIED that I had to have a catheter in and had to be on bed rest for the rest of my delivery. My contractions were getting really bad around around 4pm I went that whole time trying to suck it up. They kept asking me if I wanted an epidural, I kept saying no. They checked me and I had dilated to 3cm. Around 8pm May 4th they checked me again and I was barely 4cm but I literally felt so weak, I hadn’t eaten, my Head was pounding at how bad my contractions were, my ass was numb cause iwas in bed for so long. Now I’m the type of person to get on YouTube and look everything up , but for some reason I would NEVER want to look up c sections even if it was a just in case. I hated the idea of there even being a possibility of me getting one. Since this is already long, i just wanna say don’t go in with a birth plan. Look up EVERY option, be prepared for ANYTHING. I was in labor for 30hrs, naturally, with no epidural, until I couldn’t take it anymore. At 30hrs I finally gave In and told them I wanted the epidural, it was so difficult for me but it felt so much better I got to take a nap FINALLY! Around 10pm the dr checked me again and told me there was no progress, that I was still at 4cm. He had told me in the beginning that the epidural would’ve made the process go faster but I was trying my best to suck it up which in the end made it harder for my baby to try to come down because of how much I would tighten up instead of being relaxed. Anyways, he told me at this point the only way to get baby out is through a c section, he said my baby just couldnt fit and even if he did I probably would’ve had a really bad tear. I was disappointed, felt defeated. But I knew that after 33 hours my baby and I tried our best, and that it was only important for the both of us to be okay. At 12:29am May 5th my baby was born thru a c section.

I would tell anyone NOT to go in with a birth plan. It’s not good to be disappointed. Labor and delivery is such an incredible thing for you to feel that way. Although it wasn’t how I wanted my story to go, it’s how God intended it to be. In the end I have a healthy, amazing baby boy that I love so much!! I went out knowing that me and him tried and fought hard to have him naturally and I can’t be mad at that. To anyone out there, I just tell you to trust your body, to trust the process. That your story might be different than you wanted but the important part is that you and your baby made it!

Sorry this was long, but I just wanted to share my story.