Traumatic Delivery

It's been 3 years since my little girl was born, and I've realized I've never shared my birth story. A little background story first. My first baby was born at 37 weeks. My water broke at 1 am, I got to the hospital and I was 2 centimeters dilated. I ended up getting my epidural at 4 cm dilated. It was a smooth and easy labor 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

...Then I had my 2nd child.

I was sure I was going to go into labor early as I did with my first but she was full of surprises. Right at 40 weeks during my doctor appointment I decided to get my membrane's stripped. The doctor told me I should be delivering between 24 and 48 hours. So that's what I had in my mind. I didn't think that she would literally be out in 9 hours 😑

Throughout the day I would get contractions but they were never longer than 45 seconds. I was also clueless and was waiting for my water to break as it did with my first one. I thought I wasn't really in labor until my water broke, silly me on that part, lesson learned. That night around 8 my water finally broke. And that was when all hell broke loose. I had to wait for my husband to return home from work because he is a police officer on night shift. It took him 30 minutes to come home. I blame him for not being able to get my epidural 😂 He's driving in the car taking all these short cuts, away one point he passed a police car who flashed his lights, but the officer knew it was him so didn't pull us over. Meanwhile, I couldn't even sit in the seat, I am looking like a frog in the front seat as my head is bent against the roof of the car. I thought for sure I was going to give birth in my car. I could barely walk into the hospital and I was dilated to 10 centimeters already!!! I had no idea, I could take the contractions up until my water broke. And that's when everything got so intense. So they threw me on the bed, I pushed 3 times, she came out in 9 minutes. I thought everything would get better from there. I was wrong. I couldn't hold her for an entire hour because I was bleeding so much and they couldn't figure out how to stop the bleeding. They were digging up there with all these metal tools, keep in mind I had no pain reliever in my body, I just did this all natural so this was excruciating. They finally figured out that my uterus wasn't contracting back to normal, so they had to shove 5 pills of my asshole for it to start contracting again 😳 I was shaking uncontrollably. As they were stitching me up, they didn't tie the stitches so they unraveled, so they had to stitch me up again.

After all that was said and done, I got told my baby an hour later, at that point I was so exhausted and all I wanted to do was sleep, as bad as it sounds I didn't even want to hold my baby. Everything was hurting.

After all of that, I am blessed with 2 beautiful babies. Thanks for reading 💖