Thoughts....anyone else with me?

Everyone talks about their experiences being pregnant, the good and the bad, all of it.

Then everyone talks about ‘bouncing back’ and getting back to their old bodies or what not.

What I wish people would talk about is how hard life with a newborn is and especially how hard it is on you as a mother.

I can’t tell you all how many times I’ve cried in the past almost 3 weeks now since I had my baby.

I cry because I don’t know what the hell im doing and if it’s the right thing.

I cry because I hurt.

I cry because my family isn’t close enough to where they could come visit me one afternoon for a few hours.

I cry because I don’t know what my newborn wants.

I cry because I miss my husband even though he’s home with me for the next several weeks.

I cry because I know the relationship him and I had will never be the same.

I cry because I wasn’t able to breastfeed.

I cry because I can’t get pumping down and my nipples are extremely sore.

I cry because I have mastitis.

I just feel like everything I do is causing me pain and sadness.

Sure I laugh/smile when my newborn is content but it’s not super often and I just feel defeated.