Can’t handle it.

Maybe it’s my postpartum depression and anxiety but I just can’t handle arguments with my husband. It makes me feel like I need to run, hide or hurt myself. Just today I got home from grocery shopping and I’m really hurting since getting my IUD so I decided to take a warm bath. So I’m sitting in the bath and I have my 6 week old in her rocker outside the bath and I’m rocking her just trying to get a few minutes of peace. My husband says he’ll put the groceries away and load the dishwasher so I can make dinner, ok, great! Within two minutes of being in the bath he’s starts screaming about something, slamming things around, freaking out so I ask what’s wrong and he’s mad because the washers still broke and it’s been three days since we’ve asked management to have it looked at, I ask him just to leave it alone and we’ll call them again. Anyways, the banging around and freaking out doesn’t stop and the babies starting to cry so I get out of the bath after like 3-4 minute, wasted all my Epsom salts. I calm the baby down and go see what happened and this MF decided to take matters into his own hands and takes the hose off the washer spilling horrible smelling water all over the kitchen floor, into the carpets, under the washer and dryer and he’s using ALL my expensive swiffer dry mop pads to try to clean it up. The dishes are still in the sink and all my groceries are defrosting on the counter. So yeah, I’m mad, I tell him to stop using the dry pads and why he can’t just leave s**t alone. We’re not desperate for laundry, I went over to his mothers and did laundry there. He starts yelling at me, says I’m making everything worse and pissing him off. So now I’m breastfeeding the baby and positively fuming, I want to cry, punch myself and leave. It wasn’t even that big of an argument and I know that but I can’t control this emotion. I’m taking lexapro and I thought I was getting better but I’m feeling so overwhelmed.