It’s not what you think.

Back in December 2018 I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant with a good job and 2 weeks later I had miscarried while I was at work. After that day, they let me go.

That same month my husband told me that his sister was pregnant so I was facing the fact that I’m having a nephew/niece and I lost my child. As time went on I was depressed and anxious because i badly want a baby.

One day my sister in law snapped at me for no reason and the nastiest comment she posted on Facebook “at least I can carry a child” I WANTED REVENGE. I was PISSED. (March 2019) she told me that she didn’t want me or her brother (my husband) around the baby and I told her I wanted nothing to do with that life. She was negative and dead to me.

Months went on and I told my MIL about how her daughter saying she wasn’t allowing her brother see his nephew, and she was pissed.

I’ve been finally having the courage to go to the doctors about my periods and trying to get pregnant. Our family doesn’t know that we were trying. Some close friends.

My last appointment they prescribed me with these pills to help regular my period and coming to realize that maybe right now isn’t the best time. Maybe someone is actually looking down on me and thinking “get your shit straight first🤣” or something.

I haven’t told any of my friends about this feeling but I’m ready to let go and enjoy some of My twenty’s.

However one problem that happened my mother in law wanted to know about my last appointment because that’s when they told me I had a 2cm assist on my right side but they couldn’t do anything about it. She’s digging and I’m trying to stop her 😅

Thanks for letting me rant.