My mind hates me

So two years ago I fell into a really bad depression around this time, and now I feel like I might be falling back into it. I got a flashback of myself in high school. I had an anxiety attack and was in the nurses office, they asked if anything was happening at home that could’ve triggered it. I said, “I can’t tell you or the police will have to come.” My dad was cheating on my mom at this time, and then I saw him choke her in front of me. This has been lingering all day with me that it just sprung into my mind out of nowhere. Also my boyfriend is at Yosemite, (a place I wanted to take him for the first time), without me. He’s with a friend who has the same name as me lol, and his roommate. I’m not jealous of her hanging out with him, the same name thing does sting a little, but he hasn’t really been reassuring me. No texts other than a good morning and a hey check on my dog pls. I’m not mad, I’m just hurt I was unable to experience his first time there. Like I’m just feeling really forgotten, and I think everything is just overloading me rn. I have a test tomorrow and I don’t feel like I’ll do good on it since I can get my head straight. Idk, this whole thing feels stupid and unnecessary. Oh well.