The best fiancé.. venting

I just need to share this with someone and don’t really have friends..

My boyfriend works out of town year round and at first it was okay for us because we were just dating and I had my life back home in Texas. Well when things started getting more and more serious I moved in to his house in town. He would drive every other weekend to see me and I would drive the weekends he didn’t.. I worked Mon-Fri day time and he works Night shift.. Communication was strong because he would dedicate any free time to me or his ten year old son. After a year of doing that We decided that it would be best if I quit my job and moved out of town with him, because for one it was very hard leaving him Sunday night to drive back home for work, and wait a whole week to spend two days with him.. it’s been a month since I’ve made the big transition of moving 6 hours from home.. I’ve never been a house wife but I know how to take care of my man. This is the first time I live with a man that takes care of me, I’ve worked non stop from the age of 13. I’m used to paying and working for my own things so now depending on him to provide for us is a huge transition. (It’s a small town so it’s hard to find a job out here) The other day I was crying because I suffer of anxiety and depression. It comes and goes with triggers.. We have his son for the summer and I’m on top of things for all three of us since he’s working ten hours at night and needs sleep in the day time.. Well since I’ve been over here I haven’t really had “me time” like to get pampered or shopping, Since I’m over here now we don’t go out like when I wasn’t living over here ( again I’m not used to depending on someone financially so I don’t like asking for stuff) He caught me crying in the balcony and asked what was wrong if he had done something or if his son was misbehaving.. I said no that I was just having a bad day, it wasn’t nothing serious.. He told me that whatever it was making me cry that he didn’t like it, and if he could he would make it better.. so I poured my heart out and told him I was just feeling a bit anxious and over whelmed cause it’s s huge transition for me.. He held me and told me that he’s so grateful he found me, that he never loved someone as much as he loves me, that there’s not a thing in this world he wouldn’t do just to make me happy... Well it’s been about a week or two since that emotional night.. He called me tonight during his lunch break and told me to get a bag ready or go buy a couple outfits because he planned our Fourth of July weekend.. 🥺🥺🥺

Ever since that night he comes home from work and showers me with love, to asking how our day was to thanking me for everything.. I couldn’t be more blessed with such a loving man, I cannot wait till I’m his official wife and spend many more years by his side 🦋