Technically my 5th pregnancy

I am so nervous.. I had my son in July of 2015... this past year in 2018 I had a ectopic July a regular miscarriage is aug and we made it to 12 weeks in November and lost that pregnancy.. we’ve been trying ever since and now here we are back in July and I found out I’m pregnant 🥺 I’m so scared and nervous this one feels different to me.. I keep looking for all of the signs of pregnancy and checking for bleeding because I am literally traumatized from the losses.. so far I’m right around 3/5 weeks and I’m trying to wait as long as I can to go see a dr... we lost all of them early and I had blood testing every other day so I didn’t want to go through that bc if I’m going to lose it it’s going to be aloss and I didn’t want to go through that again.. my only symptom right now is tender breasts fatigue and bloating.. I just want my thoughts to aside... the last three I cried all the time before the loss and I’m no so sad this time so I’m hoping for a better outcome 🥺🥺🥺😭😫😫