In an abusive relationship.

Im smart enough to know that this is unhealthy. Smart enough to know I need to save my money and LEAVE FOR GOOD. Smart enough to know that this isn't what love should be. But at this moment in time , I need words of encouragement/strength from women who feel my pain and have been there. This man spits in my face like I am a dog. Kicks me. Chokes me. Then the next day its all kisses and sex . Im so tired of who I have become.