My missed miscarriage is finally beginning

And I actually feel a sense of relief

Seeing the blood

Feeling the cramps

It’s been over 4 weeks since my baby stopped growing and I feel like I couldn’t grieve this loss until everything passed

It’s heartbreaking

It’s painful

It hurts so fucking bad

But it’s a relief

To find closure in the loss

To find optimism that I will be able to try again when I am ready

To grieve the loss of my 4th baby and pregnancy

I pray that one day I will be blessed with a beautiful healthy baby

And I will never forgot the loss of the life that never was

One day

Will be MY day