Emotions

A loved one died about 6 moths ago and I never really felt anything after her death. We were very close but when she died I didn’t really feel anything. At first I felt angry but after that I’ve never really felt anything else.

I’ve been told it’s part of grieving but I don’t think I’ve been grieving? I don’t feel like I have because I don’t feel like I’ve got anything to be sad about. I feel really selfish for being this way and it’s getting to me. I’m really confused and feel like an alien because everyone else is moping about and dwelling on the past but I’m over here just getting on with it and living life.

If someone could please try and explain/ help me work it out i would really appreciate it