I am not a cheater but damn!

Let me start by saying I will never cheat. I am damn sure starting to understand how it can happen though.

My fiancé is 21 years older than me. We have been together for 8 years. The sexual appeal stopped being appealing after about 3 years. I am in my sexual prime people!

I’m not sure when it happened, but it felt like a snap of the fingers. In the last 5 years, we have had sex LESS than 10 times. We have done some oral, but that just isn’t enough for me. I could understand if he just wasn’t interested at all, but he watches porn and gratifies himself.

I have begged and cried for sex in the beginning of this sexual neglect. After about a year of pleading, I sank into a 2 year depression. Now I can’t even stand it when he compliments me let alone tries to do anything with me. It doesn’t happen very often anyways.

Today I took my best friend to get a vasectomy. When I arrived at his house, he went to take a shower. I laid on his bed and played with his dogs. He came out and said how sexy I looked laying on his bed and then pounced on me playfully. I was instantly wet. I wanted him to rip my close off right then and there. I wanted to feel his tongue lick from my breast, up my throat before thrusting it into my mouth.

Gawd I’m so wet just thinking about it again. I almost lost myself in him today. Just calling me sexy was so mouthwatering. I want someone to make me feel that way again. I need to feel that way again.