Anxiety

I suggested to my husband that if we are in the area tomorrow we should stop at his parents home so they can see their grandson. Just thinking about it all night has causes me anxiety now.

I am trying so hard to be a bigger better person but on the inside my mind is racing. Every interaction ends with some weird thing his mom does and is offensive.

Husband acknowledges it is wrong but he just wants me to hash it out with her. If I am distant from them he gets mad at me. I am just tired of fighting and really don't want any arguments. I am trying so hard and this has been going on for almost 4 years now. Just with a baby it has gotten so much worse and more frequently.

God help me with this stress from judgment on me and my tolerance to let it go. All for the sake of bringing family together and no arguing.