My boyfriend (Zack) and I had made an agreement in the beginning of our relationship that we were not comfortable with each other watching porn. I told him that I would stop and he told me that he would stop too. Just a few days a go I was looking at boots on his phone and went to change the tab and wether I scrolled up or down .. it was all porn. It hurt because If I had any doubts of him watching it I would sit down with him and ask him if he was watching it and he would hold my hand and tell me no that he could only get off to me now and that he wouldn’t it. That was my way of getting reassurance without invading his privacy and going through his phone. It hurts because he was was doing exactly what he told me not what to do.. every time he held my hand I was in doubt he would lie to me.. and after watching all of that at work he would come home and have sex with me. I told that I forgave him and would move forward but this is last chance because If it’s that important to him to watch and get off to other woman and then I’m not the girl for him.

I’ve also mention way before any of this had happened that I was considering on stop having sex and wait till marriage. He completely blew up and said no and said that it was one of the biggest ways for him to connect with him. I kept asking but it was a no so I thought to myself that it was okay and just let it slide and respect his wishes on this since we’ve already had sex (definitely should not have done that) . That we went through this whole poem thing and him disrespecting my wishes on this I thought to myself as to why I should keep giving myself to him when all he does it disrespect my wishes. So I told him that I really want to wait till marriage this time and he said that he can’t do that. I told him that I would love to build our relationship on a different kind of foundation and find other ways to be intimate with each other. I think it would be awesome for us to wait to fully have sex and just play with each other and get to know the other persons body better and to have that kind of intimacy and romance. What should I do ladies ?!