I could just cry 😭

I know crying don’t solve anything but I’m 23 with no family support and I have children so I know I have to get out here and do something. I lost my job and everything but I just been very depressed like I’m the dumps. I have a hard time getting out of bed. I deal with bipolar disorder and anxiety. I don’t fix myself up anymore. I don’t have any get up and go. Sometimes I’ll rather not wake up so all my problems will go away but I know that’s selfish because I have children to leave for . My mind is very weak , the simplest things make me very depressed . I always jump to defense when someone says something to me thinking they are against me .Sometimes life is to much for me to deal with . I believe in God so I know I can handle it because he wouldn’t put anything on me that I can’t handle. A lot of people tell me they see a lot in me and I have potential to make it in further in life but I just don’t see it . I sometimes feel like I’m slow but I think that’s because I don’t use my brain to the best of my knowledge. I don’t have friends , my children are my motivation but sometimes I feel like I can’t do it . Can anyone that’s successful or on their way to success share how they got their ambition & motivation on Times they felt they couldn’t do it what helped to get you by ? I just feel like giving it all up at times . & no I’m not suicidal nor homicidal so I don’t need the hotline number