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I was born with CP cerebral palsy and just recently I’ve had flareups with my legs my boyfriends been so understanding as the pain is been ridiculous I’ve had to have time off work I’ve been snappy with him horrible I’m just generally not myself he understands that I’m in pain. Then my birthFather passed away I only met him a month ago. This led me to have depression again again my boyfriends been so supportive been giving me Toughlove which I need I’ve been irritable impulsive and buying nearly bought another car which he told me made him consider leaving me because I was acting irrational, I fell out with my adopted mum over miscommunication so he’s been my rock my therapist my agony aunt and he still here because he loves me and I honestly I don’t know why, i’ve been treating him to console games and thanking him so much we’ve only been together a year and a half so I know I wanna spend the rest of my life with him and that he’s a keeper and I want to change I want to see a therapist I’m under doctors for tests and medication I just wanna get better for him because he loves me for me not for what I have not for what I’ve become and I never ever want to take him for granted again he is my life my love my everything. Do you know any way I can make it up to him that doesn’t involve sex or material things