Feeling like i cant cope.

Hey. I'm new to this group but I just had my fourth miscarriage.

My SO and I are long distance. We use protection and stuff. I was told I had an intolerance to contraception a long time ago. He knows this and so do I.

Anyway, we have gotten pregnant 4 times and all 4 times I've lost the baby.

I'm a strong person. But this last time is too hard. I can't stop thinking about it. Everytime I see a baby either online or in-person I get upset. We are long distance so it's very hard. I feel very alone in this. I can't even think about being physical with him. I cry constantly.

I think he thinks im over it now and im really not. I'm sorry I just wanted to rant. It's too much now. I can't deal with that many loses.