Healing from my lost

I’m once again lost for words. I didn’t think this could or would happen again. We lost our baby boy 10/23/19 I was 16 weeks and 4 days he had a heartbeat still and everything. I don’t know if I can deal with another loss . I literally prayed that baby. I prayed before he was even conceived that he would make to full term. Please pray for me. I know you’re not suppose to question God but I don’t understand stand why would he put me through this again knowing how badly we wanted this baby? Why would he take the one and only thing that I wanted most?