Porn star advice

Update: Sadly I don’t know if there is more he is hiding. My heart broke when he brought up divorce whether he was being serious or not. It’s morning and I he was sleeping in his office, I went in and asked to talk with him before work and he said “sure start talking” I told him how I didn’t deserve to be treated like that last night and how I wasn’t overreacting. He stayed quiet for a long time and when I ask if he had anything to say he said no. No apology not even a hug ):

Hi! Let me start out by saying please be kind to me, even if you disagree please be nice about it. So I am 100% ok with my husband watching porn and jacking off to it. But the one thing that does bug me is when he follows a porn star on Instagram (Riley Reid) I’ve asked him years ago to unfollow her as it made me insecure (I just had a baby and my toned body with abs suddenly transformed to a not so toned body with stretch marks on my hips, legs and suddenly lopsided boobs from breastfeeding) I weigh the same as my pre baby body but woah it doesn’t look the same.. anyways I asked him nicely and said I don’t mind that he watches her on porn sites but it does bug me that he follows her. He told me he would unfollow and did.. he followed her back and I asked him again and this went on for a few months. Tonight I brought it up again and he called me crazy and told me he was getting the divorce papers ready. He never acts like this.. we have a very solid marriage and communicate well so I was shocked and started to cry. (Oh I’m also on my period) he didn’t console me.. instead he belittled me and called me mean names and yelled at me. I cried and cried and he didn’t say or do anything. I told him how I constantly compare myself to her and how it makes me feel uncomfortable. He got his car keys and left. That was hours ago. I also told him if something was making him uncomfortable the way this is making me feel uncomfortable that I would do my best to help him and be on his side without questioning him. I can’t believe my husband watched me ball my eyes out for almost an hour and he didn’t feel the need to console me or even say something to fix the problem. I’m also hurt that he brought up divorce. I know this may not seem like a big deal to most of you ladies but It is to me, so please try to understand where I’m coming from. I feel as if he is picking “her” over me and the way I feel. I feel worthless and ugly. I didn’t think I would be married to someone who would make me feel this way. I get that my husband needed alone time to “cool off” but he always gets his alone time and I never get a hug or a nice gesture when I cry.