I feel suicido!

Im currently separated from my abusive husband. I have 3 small kids with him. The police are looking for him now to arrest him. Anyways, he also reported my family to the police and to cps. Because they do drugs. Well, because of that all my brothers and sisters, except one sister, was very mad at me. They will call me names, bitch, retarded, stupid. threaten to kill him, and that it would be my fault if hes killed and they get in trouble.

One of them even tell me to go back and leave my kids with them to care for. If i die, i die myself cause i love him too much. Also ive been telling them that he would destroy, kill, or do something bad to my family if i leave him. So i kept going back and staying. Everyone.didnt believe me and just say that im making excuses. Now that hes taking.action cause im really leaving, theyre all mad and hate me so much. Telling me im as evil as he is. They will curse me to die with him. Etc.

What am i to do? Do i need to leave? If i leave them i wont have any help. I dont.even have a car, my license, a job, ive always been a stay at home mom. Idk what to do anymore. I have no good support