Ready for this year to be over...

After trying for 2 years I had a miscarriage in Aug at 11 weeks. I was then diagnosed with a rare neurological diease called pseudotumor cerebri (ptc). Now I just found out today my mom has pancreatic cancer and she isn't strong enough for surgery or chemotherapy. She has alot of other health problems involved. 😭 And Aunt Flow decided to pay a visit this afternoon. I'm ready for 2019 to be over already. It has been a crappy year since August. Don't know if me and the hubby are gonna put ttc on hold for the time begin it's a hard choice cause we want a baby really bad.