How do you learn to love yourself when you go from this to this?

I know everyone says you should be proud of the body you have now because you have a baby, your baby love yours body, your baby will never judge your body. STOP MAKING EVERYTHING ABOUT MY BABY! WHAT ABOUT ME! I’m try so freaking hard to lose weight but it won’t budge it seem so much harder than it did before I had a kid

. How do you learn to love yourself when you got from a 18 year old fit girl who works out everyday for 4 hours every single day to an obese overweight mom who can’t even make it to the gym if I tried. I cry so much about how I look because that seems to be the only thing people talk about my sisters are gorgeous and then there’s me. I wear legging 24/7 i wear a ponytail everyday I just look stressed and depressed. You know when Steph Curry wife said she wanted attention from other men because that’s how she knows she’s still pretty that’s kinda how I fell. When I talk to my husband about how I feel and how I feel about my body he says I’m being weird. But is the same person who wants me to squeeze in a size medium when I wear an Xr large because it’s embarrassing or the same person who told me I “looked” overweight or that I should dress/be more like my sisters. I’ve asked about plastic surgery because that’s the only way I’ll feel like I’ll be happy with myself again.