I’m never in the mood to have sex with my husband but i masturbate 2 times a day to please myself .. is this normal?

My husband is always in the mood to have sex at least 4-5 times a week but I’m not .

Most days I’m forced to act like I’m enjoying the sex and let him fuck me but deep down I’d be waiting for him to finish

The other day I started crying cos he accidentally slid into my butt and that hurt me a lot and I wasn’t in the mood to fuck to begin with but I let him so he can be pleased I hid my tears but I was in pain.

I don’t know if it’s stress or anxiety

Or my health (I’m anemic and get very tired and feel low energy literally all day long)

Or maybe hormones ( I’m not pregnant )

Or maybe his past mistakes bothers me ( immature bs chatting online with women etc )

Or just exhausted from waking up early everyday to take my toddler to school and be home all day with my other toddler and cleaning and cooking and just being stuck lol.

There are some days I’d want it really badly but most days I either fake it or I show no interest when he touches me or gets close to me .

Maybe my doctor is right .. I should see a psychologist.