Man this sucks

I haven’t talked out loud about this because I don’t want to make my grandma feel even worse. Some of you know but for those who don’t. I went to catch her from falling yesterday and couldn’t hold her weight so she fell ontop of me and my leg is really hurt and I have set up a doctors appointment for it. She already feels bad because I mean I am helping her get around everyday and she sees me limping and grunting and keeps saying sorry and I keep telling her that it’s not her fault at all and that I don’t blame her at all for it because she can’t help it.

I am one of those people who are always moving around non stop and I can’t do that because my leg is fucked so I’m having so stay off of it as much as I can and ice it, elevate it and massage pain cream into my leg for relief. It’s driving me crazy because I can’t stand being still. I had to take her to the dermatologist today, and I had to help her get around and she almost fell again while we were in the doctors office and the doctor had to help catch her and I had to put all my weight on my leg and by the time we got home walking felt like torture and I hid that from her to not make her feel even worse. The pain I had when we got home was nauseating. I took one of my muscle relaxers and some ibuprofen and it’s made the pain bearable.

But good lord it hurts and I’m losing my mind having to keep off of it.