Ladies...need advise!

So I’m technically a second time mom, but a first time mom to a living child (my first child died 13 hours after he was born). I start with this because this has been playing a factor in my most recent thought process. My little rainbow is now 3 months old and I’ve loved every moment of being his mom... except going back to work. I’m a high school social worker, been in education for 15 years and essentially mothering everyone else’s child these last 15 years. Lately I’ve been feeling like I want to quit, pull out my retirement, and just be a stay at home momma for at least a year. Thing is, I’m the bread winner because my husband is in school until may. When my first son died I wanted nothing more than to be a momma, and then two years later I was blessed with my sweet boy. My husband and I don’t want to have any more children (my pregnancy was super high risk and I can only have csections and I’ll be 35 or older having more children) so it makes my decisión so much harder. I do love my job but it hurts my heart and soul to leave my son. So ladies... words of encouragement, advice, or positive comments are welcomed. Here’s a picture of my sweet boy for attention 😝😉