I dont even wanna have sex anymore😭

I feel so discouraged and embarrassed 😭 my bf and I have been together for going on 8 months now and I've never gotten him to cum from handjob or blowjob...he told me he's never ever been able to cum from those things so at first I didnt let it bother me.

Our sex has always been good. Like the first time we ever had sex he came twice in less than a minute... after that of course it took him a little longer but no more than maybe 10-15 minutes and he would usually cum like 2 or 3 times

Now IF he even finishes, its maybe 30+ minutes and a lot of the time he doesnt even cum before I get discouraged and start crying.

I'm so terrified that my bf is getting bored with me and he's gonna leave me and be w a girl that can get him to cum. I feel like my pussy is trash now😭

Please help me. Any tips? Advice? Anything will help.. I cant stop crying and its putting a lot of stress on our relationship.. I do not want to lose him😭