Just venting 🥺

I’ve been crying my self to sleep for 3 days now . Long story short I have an older brother that I was always so close with, who was a father figure to me because my father was a alcoholic when I was a kid ( he is no longer an alcoholic he doesn’t even touch it) , over time my parents separate and I went with my mother my brother with my father so for many years we weren’t very close recently my brother was hospitalized for overdosing on heroin and many other drugs . He was close to death and was in an induced coma ( at this time I was 9 months pregnant) we all thought this would scare him straight. It didn’t. He left the hospital with many damage organs and a failing kidney. He was doing great but then he relapsed. Now in my heart I feel like it’s a waiting game he disappears for weeks and pops up when he needs money. I haven’t seen him but everybody says he looks bad his skin is turning yellow because of his failing organs. I don’t mean to be negative but if he doesn’t get help now I don’t think I’m gonna have a brother much longer. And if the drugs don’t get him , there are many drug dealers that he owes money to.

Sorry for the long story I just need to get it off my chest I don’t have anyone to talk to about this and I don’t like talking to my parents about it because I know what hurts them to. 💔