I don’t think I’m what he wants anymore

We thought we were pregnant last month, and that’s when it all started. He pays more attention to his phone than he does to me, he calls me ugly (which he knows how low my self esteem is), he tells me to shut up talking to him, I told him that I wanted us to go to a fertility specialist and his exact words were “idgaf about how you feel & that’s not important”. I love him so much that I’m turning a blind eye to his awfulness but it’s starting to hurt. We live together and whenever I say I’m going to my parents for some space he accuses me of cheating. So I just lay in bed (next to him) and silently cry while I slip into depression. He doesn’t care. He tells me I cry too much and that he can’t handle how emotional I am. I’m at a loss right now, I feel so alone bc he is all I have. My relationship with my family isn’t great and he knows it. I’m getting a vibe that he’s just not into me anymore. I’m torn between staying and fixing us & just walking away. I want to be with him so bad but he’s making me feel like he doesn’t want me anymore and it hurts bc I treat him like a king and I don’t ask for anything but a little attention and kindness.