Is this normal?

Does anyone else or has anyone else felt that they don’t LIKE the SO whom they love? It’s a weird dissonance for me. Me loving my fiancé feels like something I have no control of like breathing or blinking. It’s going to happen and does without me thinking of it and if ever I try to stop I absolutely cannot. You ever tried to hold your own breath? Yeah like that. Anyway, that being so, sometimes I feel like I don’t like his touch or his words or his actions or him. His company. Sometimes I just feel irritated or annoyed. We are going into year 4 of our relationship so I suppose the rosey honey moon phase is over but is this normal? Has anyone else gone through this phase?

YOU DON’T HAVE TO READ THIS BIT: REFLECTION

I feel like I should like him more than I do but he’s changed (we have known each other for 11 years this year). We even dated early on briefly and we both were different. Has he changed or do I just know him better? Outside people including his own family, do not truly know who/how he really is.