I am such a pyscho jealous cow...I had to deactivate my FB

My self hatred, poor self image, poor self esteem and in general self loathing behaviors are consuming me.

I need to get back into therapy but I honestly just don't see the point. I have been in therapy for several years but I just can't allow myself to work on these things.

Because I hate myself so much and I have allowed my husband's comments and actions to dictate how I feel about myself, I have become insanely jealous. I have never been this way in my life.

Today, I finally decided to deactivate my FB because I constantly am shown women he has been with or has fucked and it just makes me hate myself more. It is like I can never escape. They pop up in my comment section, in my who I may know and sometimes in real fucking life. It helps I am no longer friends with my husband's family (they were all friends with some or all) on FB but it just never stops.

I wish I wasn't this way but this is what I have become.