Blah I’m scared

So today started out okay with my husband. He took my 1.5 year old for a little drive to check on his semi truck. So I decided to finally get ready...seeing how I usually don’t these days. We have a barely 4 month old as well. So I did my hair and make up and put on a cute outfit and when I came downstairs his mood instantly changed and not in a good way. He became angry. I asked him if something was wrong ...he said there was nothing. He was copping a huge attitude. So he is ignoring me so I decide to go upstairs and change and also lay down for a bit. I hear him yelling at our 1.5 year old so I run downstairs and ask what’s wrong and he said I need help!! And I said okay that’s all you need to say. But he was so mean about it. And he wouldn’t stopped so I yelled back and asked him to leave . He called me a cheap bitch etc etc. he left for an hour and comes back and I told him I would have none of that and I want out of this relationship because he promised me he wouldn’t verbally assault me anymore. We got into a battle with cuss words. I swore to..I’m not blameless. Anyway he ended up kicking me in the leg twice and pinned me on the couch and choked me. Then he left . He came back and acted like nothing happened and was FaceTiming his friends but was being evil to me. Told me to come sit in the chair before he stabbed me to death because “we are going to have a talk” and I said “absolutely not.” I’m out of here. He started freaking out yelling stupid bitch. Low life bitch. How could I marry such a stupid bitch like you. Over and over and over again. I was upstairs crying trying to block it out as it starts to get to me. Then he goes these are YOUR kids, YOU want them, TAKE THEM. I’m out of here, BITCH. Then he left. I’m not going to lie I ran after him but it was to late he had already left and probably a good thing. But now I’m scared. Blah don’t go down on me I know I’m partly to blame 😑