Another round? 🤦🏽‍♀️

I realized that every time I try to express my feelings to my partner he turned it into an argument. If you’ve been through it, you know that it is so disheartening, especially when all you wanted was a conversation. So I blocked him, no communication for three weeks. We’ve broken up like this before, and you always think it’ll be the last time. So after some time apart and some mediation, I’ve calmed down enough to know that I want him and I want to make things work. We’re back together. But my heart isn’t open like it used to be. My trust isn’t there.

So I guess my question is how do you have faith in an on and off relationship? What’s gonna make this time different? How do I even start to put my guard down? I’m so anxious, I feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.