How to ease his pain?

My two year old just screamed himself to sleep. I did everything I could think of. I stayed super calm, I rocked him for over an hour until he fell asleep. He just kept screaming for dada. My ex choked my mom and hit me for the last time... I called the cops as soon as My dad locked him out of the house. at 8 1/2 months pregnant, I am very hormonal. My parents are terrified I’ll let my ex back into our lives because of our kids. But I keep having nightmares that my parents get a call because I’m in ICU or I’m dead and they need to come get my kids. I’m honestly never letting him back. Even if he does get out of jail.

My mom got in the middle of my ex’s drunken rampage. It was my fault my parents were there in the first place. I was cramping really bad, my ex just wouldn’t stop. My parents came over and tried to get him to go to bed. He started screaming things about how he didn’t have to do a damn thing they said. He was ok to drink that night Because I was waisting money on a 20$ car seat off Facebook when we had two weeks left until the baby was here and he didn’t see why I needed to waste money on something we could get later. I told him there was two weeks! My c section was coming up fast and he didn’t need the money for more alcohol when there was a baby that needed something. He slapped me, so hard my dad herd it across my house as he was putting my son back to bed after he was woken up from the yelling, my mom got in between us and he grabbed her by the neck and started to choke her. I jumped in, hitting him as hard as I could. I didn’t think he would let go. My dad pulled me off, grabbed my ex by the back of his hair and threw him out the door.

He was arrested, pictures of my face, and my moms neck were taken by the cops and it was over. I have been cuddling my son basically all day every day for the past three days since. He just cries for dada.

I don’t know what to do. I refuse to let my ex back around my boys. Period. I put up with this stuff since Last July, when he was fired for being drunk on the job. Things are just getting worse and worse.

I feel so horrible for my son.

I truly don’t know what to do!!