Idk how much longer I can handle this

I haven’t seen my bf in over half a year and I’m losing my mind. He’s a US Marine stationed in Hawaii and I live in Canada. Due to covid, we’re gonna be separated until who knows when. We’ve been dating a year and I waited the first 6 months to see him cause he was deployed and saw him for 2 weeks and now it’s been another 6 months and I don’t know how much longer I can handle this. I actually just wanna scream, I feel so alone.

I just needed to vent and get this off my chest.