Close to breaking point ...

I’ve been coping. I have been getting help. I have been talking. I have been caring for myself.

Then I got lazy, had a few bad foods. Nothing much just a donut.

Today my goldfish of 16-19 years, died. My last childhood pet.

I did not this this would hurt, but I’m gutted.

My first instinct is to plan a binge eating spree.

I have no idea how else to process my feelings. Other than to eat them away. It’s not fair.

I just need to get better 😣

I don’t want to give up again and eat myself into misery. I dont want not eat and do the opposite extreme.

I want to stay on track....

I just need a better tomorrow...