What I’ve been feeling lately 😔

I feel like things are just out of my control nearly 2 years ago I let someone in that I actually thought was worth it & of course that really hurt me because he literally looked me in the eyes and said he seen absolutely nothing in me but then begin to turn around & “ act “ like we were actually friends which I find funny LOL 😂 but it’s still sucky the things people like to do to break you down & make you feel like you’re nothing for the simple pleasure so they can feel better mental health is SO important but at moments it makes me want to cry because people can be so intimidated by you to actually do that if it’s your friends or even family. I just can’t respect people anymore & im scared to actually get close to people now because I don’t know why it surprises me that people will smile in your face & stab you in the back & get upset and truly act like things will go back to normal.

It still haunts me to this day how my SO called bestfriends treated me in HS & to still have to go through with that just shows me how nasty and childish people can be I just feel I just want to be far away from where I live ASAP & never look back. Sometimes I feel like a magnet for people who just like to betray you NONE OF THEM ARE WANTED OR NEEDED but yet people just REVEAL WHO THEY & it like LOL DAMN REALLY