Mentally drained

Trigger warning for mental illness and suicide

Y’all!!! Idk what to do. I just need some advice. I’m so mentally drained and I need some ideas.

Lately I’ve been feeling more depressed than usual and suicidal.

I can’t afford a therapist or to go to a doctor to refill my pills.

I’m stuck at work right now, and even though I just had 4 days off, it’s still a struggle to be here. I’ve already cried twice today because I’m just so stressed and tired (and I’ve only been here an hour and a half)

I don’t know what I should do.

I really can’t afford to take off work but part of me feels like I should ask to take a few extra days off sometime, or at least ask for shorter days so it’s easier.

I don’t know how to deal with this. Life is getting so frustrating and I really don’t wanna do it anymore.

Any ideas of what I should do are very appreciated! Thank you