Sooo PO’d.....my BD buys a house for another woman 🤮🤢🤮🤢

My BD and I were together five years starting my junior year of high school so high school sweethearts. I thought we’d be together forever, so we decided to ttc and I got pregnant. I was hormonal and not coping well so I moved back home and broke up with him. I felt like he wasn’t doing what he needed to do to prepare for the babies (twins). I was 6 months pregnant and he’d only bought a case of diapers up to then. He smoked weed daily and I got sick of making no progress. Anyway a few months later I hear he’s dating a woman 20 years older than him. It answered a lot of questions. I knew from him not accepting my calls but calling back later and him not even being willing to discuss our relationship when I did talk to him, that something was up. I feel like he left his family to be with a woman for money and to drive her car. This woman had her own house and had at least two cars and had her own business ....I know all this because I (we) went to school with her son!!! Anyway this was a long time ago (6 years) and I thought I was over it all. I moved on with my life and started dating. Yeah I admit I wanted my ex back at the beginning but it just wasn’t gonna happen. He wasn’t gonna come back to working hard with me and leave being taken care of and having to not pay rent. Now today I find out this biatch he’s with hasn’t worked in two years and my BD done bought a HOUSE and moved in it with this “woman”. It hurts because he could save up the money and work hard to take care of her but couldn’t do this when we were together.

I thought she bought the house. When I picked up our kids from him, of course I saw it was a different place and they were in the process of moving in. I made a comment that his old lady bought a new house, he laughed ...LAUGHED now and tells me HE bought THEM a house. I’m freaking livid out of nowhere. I didn’t even realize I had so much anger left over. I am HURT by this. We could’ve had a house with our family...me, him, and our children but he leaves for a woman old enough to be his mother and who can’t even have kids unless she buys an egg. Just to think of them spending half the week playing house with my kids, sickens me. I can’t get away from them! It’s not a huge house or even in a good neighborhood but he let her renovate the whole inside! I’m just sickened. Where did all this money come from???? I’ve been wanting to move to another state but he’s got joint custody and refuses to let me take the kids, so I can’t.

How do I get over this for real? I realllllllly want to but every time I see shit like this, it’s worse and sets me back.

Clarification: I had twins 👯‍♂️

Which is another reason I felt so strongly about having stuff in time for the birth. We didn’t really have anything and I didn’t feel like he was a good support so I moved back. Thankfully we ended up having all the basics before the birth, but he only put together a crib and everything else was on me, because he refused to come over to see his kids (unless his brother or friend was with him)! This woman was soooo insecure it was crazy.