ugh...need some advice

hi girls!

so here is my thing. i just turned 18 the other day so i decided to download bumble just to check it out and everything. and so i was swiping thro and i came across this guy that i used to go to high school with. he was two grades above me and all and i had a huge crush on him. but he was 100% a player. he messed with my emotions so many times. and i hated him for it. i still do. but i ended up swiping right and so did he. and now we are talking a little bit. and i told him that i honestly don’t know why i am talking to him. that there is a part of me that feels like i shouldn’t and then there is the other part that wants to. and he was like it’s whatever u want to do no hard feelings and i was just like that is the thing i don’t know what i want to do. and i’m just confused and could use some advice. i can’t go to my friends ab this bc if i did they would be pissed at me, bc they know what it was like two years ago. and so yeah here i am. any advice will do. i just need some advice.