Did he want me to feel afraid?

Ma

Alright,

I am a bit confused by my boyfriend right now. Has anyone ever had their SO put you on their shoulders, but like really insist on it. Only to pretend like they’re dropping you, and you’re going to fall?

Because...my boyfriend and I were on the dock near water, and he wanted me to go on his shoulders. And I asked him why? And he didn’t respond. He just told me “come on, come on just do it,” and he knows I have anxiety. And, so like I had a bit of a panic attack being up that high. Because I’m 5’2 & he’s 5’11 (or 6ft)—and he like kept leaning in, and acting like “oh no, I’m going to trip...” and I started to freak out, because I didn’t want to fall. I know he was just being playful. But doesn’t that seem a bit extreme? He didn’t listen to me when I was shouting at him to let me down. Instead he just tried to calm me. Saying, “it’s okay, you’re okay.” And he told me he wasn’t actually going to drop me, and told me that it showed him that I don’t trust him.

Thoughts?? Does it sound like he wanted me to be afraid, like my reactions of freaking out amused him?

He’s also a seventeen year old boy.