The Bold Type/Dealing with Unexpected Triggers

Anybody else a fan of The Bold Type and having trouble with Sutton’s miscarriage story line? I shouldn’t judge her for her reaction to her miscarriage but I’m so irrationally angry at this FICTIONAL character for being relieved that she had a miscarriage.

So far I’ve been pretty resilient to triggers. My niece is having a baby (there’s a big age gap between me and her father, she’s in her 20s and married) and I’m fine. One of my closest friends just had her second IVF transfer and I’m so happy for her.

But random things set me off. Some random guy I barely talked to in high school and have seen maybe once in passing in the last decade posted on Facebook that he and fiancé are expecting and it gutted me for some reason. He’s a fine guy, he’ll probably be a good dad. I don’t even know, I barely know the guy. It’s not like a “why does this asshole get a baby!?!?” thing. I honestly don’t know why I got to me.

And this storyline on the Bold Type is just killing me for some reason. I’ve watched tons of shows with pregnancy and miscarriage and abortion since all of this happened and none of it bothered me but this one storyline is just unbearable for me for some reason. I relate to Sutton! She’s me like 10 years ago! Career focused, driven, I get it! I get her! I think maybe I see too much of young me in her? And I’m thinking like “you idiot! Don’t waste so much time! You have no idea how hard this is going to be!” I don’t know. Ugh!!!!!!