Advice!!

Please no hate just need advice. I quit school in year six cause I was getting badly bullied and my mother had no faith in me so she pulled me out and i went to beauty school.

I am now 17 and I study beauty and work from home. I currently live with my mother since I don’t have enough to move out.

So the issue is me and my mum are alike we are better apart because our personality is kinda the same. She is a very judgmental person she will judge anyone without getting to know them and talk shit about literally everyone including me and my brother.

So I just started talking to a guy after being in a toxic relationship for two years. My friend HMU with him and he seems really sweet he’s so tall like god Damm I’m not up to his shoulder😂. I showed mum some pics of him and I and she straight away said he looks twelve and then saying how can you hug a stranger. Like first of all hes not a stranger I’ve met him a lot of times and like what do you think getting to know each other before dating stands for?🤦🏼‍♀️

She only wants me to do shit that makes her happy. So for starts she controls 100% of my life what I do who i talk to who i hang out with what my career is. I don’t really like makeup and beauty but it makes her happy. She hates my mates yet she hasn’t even met most of them because of how judgmental she is straight away after meeting them like as soon as they walk through the door she starts talking shit. Yet to be honest she can’t talk she got pregnant at 14 because she didn’t like that her mother was strict so she lied to her mum and slept at her bfs house. So I don’t get what her problem is. Like nothing I do makes her happy unless she chooses what it is. So say I wanted to go out for the day with my mates she would make me feel guilty for leaving the house rather then staying home looking after her children when she just sits on her ass talking shit about me to her own mother. For a few days I’ve been feeling really unwell my little sis gave me her cold. And today I felt really unstable to even get out of bed but my mum screamed at me because I wouldn’t look after her for the day. When tbh I felt really really unstable like I could barely walk and I couldn’t even talk my throat hurts so bad. My nose is blocked asf and she told me I’m being selfish for not taking care of my sister. First of all I didn’t want to make my sister more sick then she already is and two how am I the selfish one? See if I don’t do something that makes her happy then I’m a disappoint and lazy bitch to the family. She manipulates me. She did the same to my brother until he left. And now all she does is talk shit aboht him 24/7 to her friends.

So pretty much in her own words i dress like a slut. I post bikini photos on social media for attention. Which I only post pics of me in bikinis because I’m confident in my body after shit happened me to I felt disgusted in my body for a really long time but don’t get me started on that story. And she hates all my mates. She hates all the choices I make she try’s to get in my business 24/7 and she stalks who likes my shit and who follows me. Which is fucking creepy. So I’m thinking of asking a mate if I can stay with them for a while cause I’ve just had about enough. I’m tired to making her happy because tbh nothing makes me happy anymore I just can’t please her and she is just so negative. She makes me feel so insecure especially in public. One day I would feel really good about my body so I were a crop too with shorts and I go out and she just asks why are you wearing that. You can see your fat legs and stomach. You need to do workouts. There a lot more I can say but I can’t fit the rest in here