He had a baby on me

I spent most of my life with my husband we're childhood sweethearts and now I feel like it was all a lie! I wasted my life! Gave him 6 kids, left my home for him, I do everything as a wife and mom. I work, go to school and raise my kids right. I was happy then this man the man that is supposed to love me waltz in and tell me he's a father again our baby just made a year old. I tied my tubes I can't have anymore kids and it's crazy because I joked about him getting a vasectomy for this very reason.

I never saw this coming my heart dropped into my ass! He's been fucking this woman right under my nose now they have a child together. The broad is a drug addict and the baby was born that way the baby was taken away at birth he is going to court to get custody. I hate to sound evil but he straight up asked for my support like this is the 1950s or even that movie fences. He had an affair for months, conceived a child, knew for 9 months this baby was coming, told me he was going to the gym when in reality he was going to the hospital. I'm so hurt it feels like I've been hit by a car!

I want nothing to do with him or his child. I didn't sign up for this I don't have to stay. I can't stop crying I'm embarrassed to talk to my family about it. His mom won't stop calling me I don't know what to say I just want a divorce right now! Idk idk my whole world is shattered I just can't stop crying.