I want a baby young and I know my boyfriend doesn’t

It’s really starting to affect me daily. All I think about is how I can arrange my life to have a baby. I’m debating turning down a study abroad trip because I want to be pregnant before then. Is this crazy? I’m only 23 but I want to be a mom more than I want anything else. More than school, more than even a husband? And I know my boyfriend wants to travel and live probably for another 10 years if he can childfree. I think I should just break up and find an older guy ready to have children. I love my boyfriend a lot but I don’t think he can make me happy, I think a baby would make him miserable and that’s not fair to him. And I don’t want to get left after a few years if he feels trapped.

I don’t know what I really want to do but I know I want to be a mom sooner than later for so many other reasons as well. Should I just break up with him and explain why?

** I should add that...it’s truly been years of soul searching and years of feeling this way. I’ve been in school I’m close to finishing and I would still finish if I were to have a child. I just don’t want anything else, I can’t even see myself as a career woman I just see myself as a mother. “What do you want to be when you grow up”

A mom!

I wish I could shake the feeling and focus on school and other things but it feels like the only reason I’m getting this education is for my future child so it still revolves around them.

I really appreciate everyone’s input it’s so helpful I just wish it was that easy to just, not want it anymore and focus on school...it’s like it’s engrained into me to want to be a mom. I’m studying child development and child psychology in school if that matters